Throughout life I’ve experienced many different types of love. Some loves were selfish and manipulative. Some loves were friendly and fun. Some loves were codependent and superficial.

Yet there are some loves that shaped my understanding and experience of what it truly means to love and be loved.

Some loves touch the Divine. Some loves alter my DNA. And I appreciate them all.

Anthony, thank you for the kindness that runs through your veins. You showed me what love looks like in its most unselfish form and helped me see that we all deserve real love.

Christopher, thank you for your gentle nature. You showed me what it means to give and receive love unconditionally.

Roach, thank you for your generosity in all things life and love. You showed me how to adore and be adored.

Timothy, thank you for sharing the depths of your enormous heart. You showed me how courageous and giving love can be.

Mark, thank you for inspiring me with your limitless, compassionate love. You show me how to love myself and share this preciousness with life. You are the reason I am here. You show me the face of Infinite Divine Love every day. We are one. I love you.

My heartfelt gratitude goes out to all of the wonderful men and women of the world who uplift others with your beautiful love.

Xoxo

 

Lying on the bed
In the sunlight with my love
Hearts bounding, breath smiles

 

Recently I’ve looked deeply into my capacity for unconditional love, trust, giving and devotion.

I asked the questions: What am I devoted to? Do I give of myself without expecting anything in return? Do my devotion and giving deplete or replenish me?

How am I restricted from giving pure love to others? Where does this restriction come from? What does it feel like in my body?

And the most profoundly illuminating question of all…

Am I holding onto anyone else’s expectations of me (parents, children, partners, friends, society)? I asked myself how would it feel to release these expectations?

I decided to take time to really listen to what other people are asking of me. Hearing the truth behind their expectations and finding compassion for them and their demands helped me see that their expectations of me are a way for them to feel safe and secure in their experience of life.

This doesn’t mean I have to fulfill their expectations though!

Understanding where these expectations are coming from was enough to set me free.

I began to understand that people interact with me in a way that reflects their relationship with themselves.

Letting go of the need to live up to everyone else’s expectations while being true to myself allows me to give unconditional love and fully trust life with a bit more ease.

This compassionate understanding boosted my courage to stay with my true direction regardless of everyone’s expectations and demands. I can now listen to others and respect where they are coming from while still following my truth.